Half Term: Day 3 - What are my next steps?

Hello whoever might be out there, 

I had my interview for college today. It went perfectly to be honest, couldn't have wished for anything better. It just made me wonder what my next steps actually are?

I can't stay rotting in my room forever. There has to be a point where I decide enough is enough and that I need to do something with my life. People will say I don't need to panic because I am only 16 and that I shouldn't compare myself to others, but that is literally impossible when I am in a building of people my age, 5 days a week. They say comparison is the thief of joy, but comparison also brings about change.

It is as if I am waiting for one big event or opportunity to be handed to me at my doorstep, which would be ideal to be honest. One big change that will all happen in an instant and suddenly my life will be perfect, but I know that will never happen. But I am not doing bad either; why should I go out and chase this "perfect" life when the one I have at the moment isn't too bad? I lack the drive needed to make change. I work out of necessity.

I always get asked the question of "What do you want to do in the future?" and I really do not know the answer. I thought I did but everyone around me has managed to convince me otherwise. So now I am just sitting in an awkward limbo. Having to decide my life at the age of 16, while being told to make no set decision at all.

Yours faithfully, 

MD

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